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Just another reminder for me that I can often wish I had what I don’t understand. The fame that I was idolizing eventually tore his life apart. The wealth that I was jealous of bought him into a world of drug use that he never meaningfully shook.
I am saddened that he couldn’t pull his life together and for the consequences of that lack.
So many times I have been angry at life or God for not giving me more. So much of my twenties was spent struggling to understand who Christ is and who I was in all that. It was very difficult and at times I handled that difficulty well and other times very poorly. But that tough decade was a blessing. I learned to turn to God for my strength, I learned that my failings were evident to most people that were paying attention, so I should stop trying to hide them. I learned to be who God made me to be and to stop wishing I was something else.
I continue to struggle with seeing myself the way God does. But as i walk closer to him, I see the wisdom of his approach more.
Now, I wish Corey’s life had been a bit more like mine.